I've have always been accustomed to being miserable and to being with miserable people

My parents gave us a miserable life that was full of their mutual misery toward each other and toward the world

Maybe it's time to leave Peoria and not be miserable anymore.  Maybe it's time to just leave and be miserable somewhere else

I don't know.  I just desire something different and to also feel better.  Maybe I need to get back on my anti depressants again.