Loneliness

The feeling of loneliness is a damp and cold house when the furnace dies.  The anxiousness of pipes freezing.  The stiffness of cold bones.  The tiredness.  Need for warmth.

I am lonely, often.  Instead of attempting to constantly drinking, eat or smoke it away, I go on Facebook and comment on posts.  I go on dating websites and talk to people who are willing; then they go away and never come back.

I'm tired of it all.  It's killing my creativity.  I'm in survival mode.  It's winter.  Trying to keep up with everything that needs fixing or cleaning.

I don't want to be in survival mode.  Social media is what keeps me sane, I guess.  It's what makes me wake up instead of sleeping until its time for work.

I like money.  I like making money.  I don't like work, though

All I want is to get out of this unmotivated and anxious place that I am at right now.  I just want to feel lighter in my mind.