Depression. When things get bad, I look for ways to get out of it.  Most of the time, I just keep going in spite of it.  Because literally nothing actually works but Prozac and St. Johns Wort.   I've resigned myself to it that it is lIke have a cold in your brain.  You just kind of wait for the sickness to pass or you just work around it as you can.

I do think it holds me back in some ways.  But it also holds me back from other things.  Like being concious about money, food, and alcohol.  I care less for and put less energy into people who are not there for me.

This is a big thing.  As I tend to become a caretaker, giver, emotional support, etc.  My brain is too tired to put much into that.   I'm focused on me and getting through the day.  I'm focused on trying to make enough money, exercise an hour a day, and eat right.

When I start finding ways to not feel tired, zombified, and anxious, the anxiety kicks in and I care about nothing.  Then I self destruct and start inviting the wrong people around.  People that I released from my life.  

It's important to have good boundaries.  Don't volunteer advice that isn't asked for.  Be kind and offer a kind word of support.  Don't get involved with people's problems